RW #1

Well this is just my random though that just happen when i’m on uneasy mood.

I am Karma, somebody that just awake from sleep today. I live alone at a small house with a quite interior. Right now, I’m eating my breakfast in a quite mood. To tell you who i am, i am a survivor of a war in south east. The bad memories always come to me.... the Death, the blood, the sickness, the chaos, the feeling. I’m a quite sensitive person, anybody who is feeling sad right could make me ache. Make my heart and head hurt. I can feel their mental pain twice than normal people would do. Right now the pandemic hit the world. The world yet sad again. I felt their pain losing peoples who they loved.

Just like the good O’l day, I lose my father who protected us from the soldier. His last word, “Son, Lived and stay strong...... now hide and run to the tunnel, i will hold them up”

And then before upon leaving i heard the gunshot and cried a lot for the first time. Next i lost my Big brother, he is really reliable and a really good person. Until he got betrayed by his friend. In front of me, he got sacrificed. Me and my little sister only can hide in the bush hiding from that scene to stay alive.

I don’t even know what his last though was. So i try to survived with my sister in the chaos of war.

The black monster inside me is trying to devour me. But my little sister prevent that to happen. With a just a little touch of her my Black monster inside has calmed a little bit.

Back to walking and surviving, i always remember one memories or one regret. When we almost reach the safe zone, in the last tip i heard the sniper shot. I saw it in my eyes that it will hit me. But........ she protected me, the shot still hit me but she protected me so it will not hit my fatal point.

The only regret for me, looking pitiful, make me want to die..... but..... she protected me.... i should the one protect you.. why?... WHY?

“Because you are....” the monster speak to me,

I don’t know if it was delusion or not, but it felt real. I walk to the safe zone in depressed mood. The soldiers there know and they console me.

* * *

I am safe now, i am at the “Bunker 1” the nearest one to the country. My sense now twice sensitive. Everytime i see a sad mood, i will puke and get a big headache on how shock it is.

There a soldier name “Ethan” that knows about my condition. He always invite me to play a game of chess with me to make me atleast forget the situation.

We played chess a lot. I loss count on how many match we played but i remember that i loss everytime to him and he always tease me with a word, “Try it with me hehe”. It irritates me on how good is he on chess.

My role at the camp is to gather water and supplies using bike. Well, doing chores make me forgetting on how tense the situation are.

The day keep moving forward, until the attacks came. It was destruction, i can’t even describe it. But one thing that i always remember is when Ethan hiding and trying console me at the secret basement. He invite me to a chess match in that small spot. I decided to play with him.

I’m nervous tho, the explosive, the gunshot, the screaming. I can hear it.

But he then grab my hand and said to me, “Focus on the game dude, you are losing”

I can’t say any word. So i continue the game.

20 minute has been passed, the winner still not showing yet. I got more anxiety now because i can hear someone knocking at the top of the basement.

But he, Ethan told me to stay focus. I keep focussing on the game, my heart beating fast and my breath is out of control.

“Hey, karma.... what are you going to do after it all end” Say Ethan to me while moving his pieces.

“..... I don’t even know, i don’t even a will to live” Answer short by me.

“Haha.... You need to think about it, you don’t know if you hit the jackpot” Say Ethan.

“I.....don’t want to think about it” I told him to stop asking about it.

“No, Karma.... you are winning now”

When Ethan told that i realise something, the gunshot and the chaos has gone. At the same time i check mate him at win for the first time.

“W-wait what is this mean....”

“Hahaha..... You win, boy. Your first Win...” Say Ethan that losing consciousness.

And i just realise that i played with a dying Ethan. He got shot on his fatal point and still played with me.

“W-why you don’t told me?” I ask him.

“I know you have a sensitive feeling so i don’t want you to have a panic attack....well i think this is it Kid” Say Ethan.

“WHY!? Why..... why........ why people near me are gone.....” I cried, i’m mad, i’m dissapointed on myself.

Then came his hand patting me in the head, trying to console me.

“Oh C’mon kid....Don’t make me ache like that huhu.....”

“You have bright future...... it might hard for you...B-but....i believe you can do......it”

That was his last word. His hand that patting me slowly falling down. And he died with a beautiful smile on him.

I loss a word...... The Black monster is keep whispering something on me. I heard the reinforcement has come and i have lived in the country.

 

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